So,

Firstly, Let me make an announcement that . . . .  I finally got a new phone ever since 23rd of March! Thank you Dad for the Samsung Note 2! Yes, finally! Its my first ever expensive phone. Hehe!

Secondly, I'm finally hired by a company for a part time job. My first day of work was on 1st of April. Honestly, if you were to ask me, I would say that I prefer Coffee Bean's Management, but I also prefer the current work easy job scope.

Work so far is okay except for the part that ever since I started work, Aizan and I could hardly go out or text as often as before. I know its hard for him. Of course, it's even harder for me. Insyaallah, we will pull through these tough times. All we need from both parties are trust and loyalty. Even though we do meet up like once a week, I still miss him. As clingy and selfish as I may sound, in fact, I wish I could be with him everyday. 

I don't know how long will I stick to this job this time round, but I shall give myself a few months. Kinda sucks that I can't give my own schedule. Really.

Next up, Internship will commence on 15th of April! Honestly, I'm quite nervous and I'm definitely not prepared for it. The thought of having to wear formal for 5 days per week kills me. It's gonna be a whole new environment for me. May god bless me with a smooth internship journey! Definitely gonna miss seeing my schoolmate around since we are all attached to different companies for internship.

I shall end my post with a photo of the man I dearly love.

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Relationship. It's not all about love. One need to have to have the courage to face and overcome future obstacles too. If you're an egoistic person or a temperamental person just like me, being in a relationship can be a daily lesson to you. At times, you will learn to put your ego aside and sometimes you will learn to calm yourself down easily than when you were single. In life, nothing is easy. Obstacles in life makes you more mature and stronger.

There are times when I tell myself, "Syahidah, you are strong. Everything is going to be fine. You can do this!" and there are times when I tell myself, "You're so weak Syahidah. You're such a failure in life. You deserve all this unhappiness and dissappointments!".


2013 seems really tough. Life has been a tough ride so far and again this question never fails to come across my mind, "Is this all Karma?" It makes me ponder for quite sometime again and again. But then again, is there even such thing call Karma? I thought we as Muslims are made to believe about Qada' and Qadar.


The happiness I shared with Aizan for the past 10 months is one of a kind. I never felt anything like that before this. He make me feel so special. He understands me so well and most importantly, he never once give up on this stubborn and hot tempered lady.


Whatever obstacles we are facing right now, Ya Allah, Let him be my first and last true love. I beg and I plead you. I know I've not been a pious muslim to deserve your blessings, but please give me the chance to repent and slowly make things better.


Ya Allah, beri lah aku kekuatan utk menempuh segala dugaan yang telah kau berikan kepadaku. Kuat kan semangatku untuk meneruskan kehidupanku ini. Aku mohon.


On a brighter note, I'm already on holiday! Its been 3 weeks now. In just a blink of an eye, I'm already done with year 2! Syukur Alhamdulilah! I will be on internship next semester! Cant wait! At least I know I'll be earning for the next few months which means I can lessen the burden off my parents' shoulder, so that they don't have to give me allowance for school every day.

I'm glad I manage to catch up with my dearest poly mates.





Ok, that's all for now. Bless you every soul out there.

Love,
Sya.