JIVE CAMP 2012 ended yesterday. Due to lack of sleep, I slept for 17 hours the moment I reached home till the very next day. This will be my second and last jive camp. I've gotta say that this year's camp was better and more fun! There were more good reviews and feedback than the bad ones. It was good to see all the SLs and GMs to be so bonded with each other. I've gotta say that the committee have done a good job and hope each one of you have a good rest.

It's been a long time since I had a good talk with my parents. Parents know you well. They know when you're happy and when you're having a tough time and they are the people who never fail to be there for you during your worst downturn. I apologize for all this while I've disappoint you Baba, Umi. I thank Allah for bestowing such an understanding parents to me. Despite disappointing you two, the both of you were still there to give me advice and be there for me. I felt a sign of relief after the talk we had. I shouldn't have lied in the first place. Love you Baba, Umi.

Just like how my parents felt the pinch when I lied to them, I felt the pinch when you lied. I know its just a small matter. Despite trying to keep cool about it because you have apologized, I am still disappointed. I tried not to make it a big deal that's why I didn't tell you how disappointed I still am. I don't know about you but I still remember we told each other "No secrets between us". & Try putting yourself in my shoe. I've tried my best not to hurt you ever again by my actions but have you ask yourself or realized if any of your small actions would hurt me? I bet you don't. I guess your tweet is right "Trying so hard not to hurt others will eventually lead to you hurting yourself". I bet you don't realize how afraid I am if I were to be replace. You don't know how that feels because I don't have a recent ex-boyfriend or a close friend who works nearby my working place whom I talk to often. Its pressurizing. But I tried to keep my head up high and tell myself "everything is going to be okay". I promise you and myself that I'm gonna make you happy and be there for you whenever you're feeling down, that's why I put my unhappiness aside even though I'm sad and disappointed at times and you don't know anything about it. You have no idea how afraid I am to lose you. You have no idea how much I really wanna grow old with you. You have no idea how much I really love you. You have no idea how much I feel like breaking down right now . . . :'(